The Gray Terminal

  The holidays.Wee.What a joy.Such splendour and merry-happiness it holds. For all others. Never really did much most of the time.Sure there was the christmas party, a clan gathering, outings for a week but rather I still find myself lost inside this void.. I call it my life. Dragging my feet around daily chores,I stagger aimlessly between stuff I should accomplish, and things that fulfil and satisfy my soul.I can’t help but to waste my nights and mornings meaninglessly, trading my afternoons for hours of timeless slumber.The only and true single variation to my “lifeless” living style would be my job, which dried up in a couple of weeks.My job addiction must’ve swallowed the assignments. Yes yes there’re all the glamorous gifts gotten from gamers and guys I call friends.Did I mention the church as well? Thank you Lord. Timelessly again, we’re always fooled by mere numbers of this so called “2 month super-extravagantly looooong holiday” but I find it rather bullshitingl...

pretty much bored lately…didn’t really do much BUT hey I found this!   WARNING:EXPLICIT VIOLENCE.PARENTAL GUIDANCE IS ADVISED(if you’re freaking scared of watching things die)

LoL i accepted a part-time job offer by my dad at his office doing data management and editing, his boss’ company was starting a website and i was there to assist the ICT department in their website stuff.i had to edit like over a hundred .csv(comma-separated values) excel sheets to be uploaded to the web’s server under php format(i think).I was watching him tweak several stuff and i can only understand some of it.lol. how nooberish of me. If i wanna go into the industry I’d better learn from these bunch of guys.The entire ICT team are russians who speak english and one of them’s sorta muslim or sumth. Oh yea im being a 100 bucks for each assignment.Considering the work i’m doing against my knowledge of the field I’m actually well overpaid xD And so there I was, dotaing until 1.30 friday morning and at 7 i need to wake up for my first day of work.Woke up feeling half-dead, and dragged my ass following my dad to his office.Got stuck in a jam for half an hour.Damnn I could have sle...

  Push. Recommended movie to watch.I’m not gonna give any spoilers, just an insight with a quote from the movie “There are special people in this world.We don’t ask to be special.We’re just born this way.We pass you on the streets everyday, unnoticed by most.It started in 1945.The Nazis were conducting experiments in psychic warfare, trying to turn those with psychic powers into soldiers.Lots of us died.The war ended, but the experiments never stopped.Other governments around the world set up what they called “divisions”.Trying to do what the Nazis couldn’t, to turn us into weapons.Division’s agents are trained to track  and hunt us down like animals…take us away from our families and friends.They test us, and categorise us.I’m what they call a “watcher”.We can see the future even if that’s not always as simple as it sounds.Others are called “movers”, just an easy way of saying telekinetic."Pushers" put thoughts in your head and make whatever lie they come up wit...

  I wake into a beautiful morning, Wondering how another’s life is boring Boasting how my life is soaring, In vanity I stare at a mirror, Overly engrossed by my blessing.   I wake into the darkness of night, Awakened by the shriek of a neighbour’s fright I looked, and saw her die at sight Hiding, I cry upon the misery of terrorists, With dismay I question “Where’s the light!!?”   I wake to see your gorgeous glow, Truthfully I feel unworthy you know? Ravishingly, I stare at your wondrous brows I regret for losing our fortunes and sows. I wake up, as I ponder alone. Wondering what life was like at the other pole I pity the poor, war-torn and widowing souls But envy the wealthy, the known and the really old.   And so not very long after, I was struck by a bolt,followed by thunder.   I  mock at the very loom of my life How unfair life is,I’ll die before my time. How I was cheated by only the vile Observing...

Haha considering the incident that happened during Negaraku<ku> our patriotic Chinese hero from Muar continues spreading his cult sermons (with musical accompaniment) and a whole bunch of nothing but the deep,dark truth.LOL He’s got serious ballz. Anyways if u wanna hear the rap it’s only near the ending part but LOL it’s serious shit manz how he screws the workers! This guy should get an award for the best swear scene! Hell YEA he deserves gain the title of “Dato”!! but still.. Wee Meng Chee can never beat the legend.The legendary scene that made me laugh out loud with my ass off while rolling on the floor laughing out louder(LOLMAOROFLOL).The scene so legendary to nominate its actor as best supportive actor of 2008. I bring you: TOM CRUISE!!!! xD LOLMAOROFLOL “I WILL F*CK YOU UP!!!!!”

  Truthfully, I can’t wait till the day I sit past SPM, because there’s where real life begins.College…no more disgusting and lame Menteri Pendidikan bullshit.. and finally the place where you know how good you actually are, rather than relying on how diligent you study.Gahaha. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ And yet it happened again…this only this time it was much colder… cruel… and harsh.This time it left me with nothing at all, as a fool tries to grip a fistful of water…foolish and meaningless…But it didn’t get to me.Not this time.Perhaps I’ve felt this plentifully enough.So much to the point, I masochistically yearn for it.For some reason, I envy her for being able to forgive.Being able to forget.All in a matter of seconds.Being able to be straight forward,direct and bold.And this people still take negatively, and imposingly they discriminate.

Gahaha YESSS after a 2nd attempt at Satoshi Kamiya’s Wizard, I managed to pull through! Yea but the work part was hard though, I’ve got no idea how long I’ve spent on this model, all i know was that it took me 2 days, a forum consult,some really crease-holding paper and some glue. Yup i cheated =D but just as other folders had problem with the right hand griping on to the staff, they decided to just glue the hand and the staff together and so did I.Well I did modify certain areas of the model:I twisted the  and curled the staff,opened each of the shoulder pleats to create a proper looking sleeve,crimped the hat a little more so that it actually looks like a hat, unlike several other models I’ve seen where they left it looking like a half-hood or sumth.I also made the robe more stretched out,as for the hands I did have problem with them but anyways I simply wet folded them again, although the quality of the paper made my life difficult. I dont know what type of paper I used, I...

This is a piece from Robert J Lang’s Insects and their kin, published way back in 1995.And this day I finally folded it, because I had promise a friend I would learn it.I’ve also attempted a few other origami pieces, such as the Wizard from Satoshi Kamiya(yes,its the same one from David’s blog). I did not succeed due to my paper size, I was using A4 squares but the size suggestion was 35x35 squares. The Wizard turned out disgustingly plump and was very difficult to shape even with wet folding.But I still have the crease pattern and I’m studying my mistakes.I also attempted the Robert Lang’s cicada, from the same book.The failure there was the bore factor of paper again, this time it was the wrong quality.The main problem was actually shaping the head,tendrils and antennae and because of my paper quality being too stiff or too soft often wore out the paper thus ruining the head. Anyways heres some pictures of the completed Beetle.Its only my first attempt, and unlike the cicada it was...

I’ve created the banner for our school’s new website so check it out and rate it using the poll box >>> edit: I’ve added several versions of the banner, in arrangement from the alpha stages to the current one.   (click on image for full view) Please note that its only a sample, its not fully complete.The finishing touches are the addition of maybe a bigger school logo, address and other web requirements and criteria that fulfill what ever Ong wants(gossh he’s such a drag).All are comments appreciated. edit: enhanced the colours,adjusted the hue and colour balance, added more spots.

Haha 2 more months and its Grad year...Time surely flies, and as time is burnt of like pieces of paper, the dawn of the end approaches...

Once you always had this smile, It calms my temper, shakes my spine It rushes my heart, temps my soul Taking me deeper, making me whole. Once we had this special time We shared our lives,our sorrows and lines We learned to love,in between lie So here I stand,bleeding out my eyes.. Arguing:I held a Cri Du Coeur, Under this moonlight,weeping we sunder But somehow I know,we'll miss each other Turning back, I came for an answer Coming closer, hearing resonant cries This wound gets deeper,I feel it inside Hugging your gentleness,our tears combine Creating this river,And kissing divine. I called this poem "broken river because rivers cant be broken(dwuh) well i got inspiration from re-reading "The Cinderella girl" and i just thought "I havent written a romance poem yet so why not try?"

title says it all, but this is a delayed post, not delayed intentionally but because they celebrated her birthday yesterday.Sorry I couldn't go haha over with that... I bought this cool designer mouse well not because i wanted to, my parents were supposed to buy a new hard disc but they kinda bought the wrong type so we went back to the store, to realise they're out of stock so we exchanged for a bunch of stuff worth the hard disc's value. I intentionally choose the mouse for its functions, and among all the mice(with the same price and functions) available, it was easily the best looking along among all and it tempted me to choose it.Its kinda cool and it has this extra button which i can hopefully macro for gaming. heres some pix of it: Functions: *G-laser: tested to work on most surfaces *Rubber Gel thumb grip *2x button:click once to do double clicks(i wanna macro u) *Mouse wheel and wheel button:program 58 commands with driver installed(yea thats wud im talkin abt) *St...

First day of tuition taught by Shaun's mother, my apologies for not knowing her name. Overall I think the subject sufficiently difficult as compared to Add-Maths, yet with the freedom of expressing your self-opinions related to the question.But yet unlike the conventional comprehension-based Literature we study in English, this subject requires a skill to reading the material. For a first lesson we learned how to critical read and we studied our first short story,The Cinderella Girl.The theme and conflict of this story is much clearly related to how teenagers live these days, being sternly self conscious,snobbish and vain.And yet there is the fraction of the society living as outcasts, scorned and despised.But between the two is a character(namely Edward), who's brought up to self-conceit while having an inner psyche to tell him otherwise.Just like most teens these days Edward is aware of being wrong but tries to earn a status by achieving the society's expectations. anyon...

Believe me when I say up till' a few days ago I believed the drama wud not even mean a thing, it felt very self-responding and meaningless.There were whispers going around a bunch of the class, saying "Thursday go Starplus, book all courts;U dun come Thursday we also dun come".To those certain people it was possibly a meaningless act of self redemption,but yet to the ones really engrossed into this matter,it was a pain to even hear it.They wouldnt stay back for rehearsals, they couldnt be serious during rehearsals.Definitively, it was a total miracle for it to turn out this good. And yet again as a failure I flopped onto my job, I didnt want to act but I couldnt get the sounds right either.Maybe partly it was the media's fault, some of the sounds were cut off and on but my timings... But who bothers?Its just dumb sounds people wouldnt bother to hear.Sounds that never noticed nor should make a tad of difference in its total absence.Not with the presence of such talent ...

There was once this boy named Jack, Who's talent brought joy to the lack. He'd always left a smile after that, But due to that,some people attack. One day his jokes climbed over too far , His parents had to pay double par. Jack poor Jack was dragged a far, Turned to a slave,his job was a war. Slogging in a pock-mine, Working like there was not, time Shackle and chained, he fakes his grins Laughter he spreads,to miners he'd seen. His riddles met the Royal Bard, Who cheats the King for much reward Instantly,the King's fury spawned The bard be hanged,and Jack be called. Summoned as the Royal fool, Singing and dancing,wearing thick glue Masking his sadness,He's mocked all through Holding within,A monster that drools. That faithful day Jack filled with rage, Gripping a Dirk,Jack thrusts in vague. Barons horrified,getting greenly pale, The Royals struck dead, from a Coup De Grace. Blood bathed and battered, Jack crawls out of gore. Mocking his bitter fate He ended his lif...

Yesterday I went to a house of my friend's before we went to Ikano for the countdown thing (flopped there aren't any countdowns this year,) While we were there, he told me about this surprise he had for us. He went to the kitchen, cut something and placed it in a bowl, then heated it up in the oven. after it was heated he brought it to us, we were at the computer in his room.There were 2 pieces of orange coloured hotdog-shaped looking pieces of meat in the bowl. then he asked me ern:"guess what is this?" me:"dunno" ern:"guess la" aaron:"what is this la?" me:"let me think...ur neighbour had this dog that couldn't stop barking... so u went to the dog and did something, and now it dosen't bark?" ern:"lol no la dumbass.Just stfu and eat it" I hesitated, then I dumped one of it into my mouth.It was a spicy hotdog.cool. then he asked me ern:"how is it?" me:"cheh its only spicy" ern:"really ar...

yup. had dinner there, I think the restaurant's name was Emperor garden or something like that,well wad-so-eva. we were served the regular 8 course meal(or 9,I totally forgot)typically shark's fin soup,four seasons(the thing with 4 dishes in a plate), errr... roast pork(or piglet), a steamed fish, large prawns, sea cucumber, noodles, and for desert the same ol' sweet broth serving with the peach-like-"pau"s. too bad i was too lazy to snap pix, but a whole bunch of others were so by the next update I'd add them in.Till then, ure gonna have to wait xD

And Yes, Here it is... The very much awaited and much anticipated... *******Update!!!!!!! Well here's a brief update of the past two weeks...I've sincerely no idea what to update on... Anyways I wasn't really doing much during my "holiday" period but surely I would be how I would dream to live maybe? Same stuff.Wake up during noon(or later), eat, flip channels on astro(I'd watch only the very same few channels[afc,axn,hbo,cinemax,star movies]yea its kinda wierd a teen my age be watching afc, I have this odd second ambition of being a chef) then maybe get my laptop pumping! (or processing =.=).Well by this hour I wouldn't be gaming just yet, I'd be surfng, reading manga, yada-yada.Evening...dinner then.. GAME!...till an hour before my sister wakes up for skool. LOL.One of the days I shut down and slept just in time for my sister to wake up and get in the bathroom(to conceal my gaming hours xD wakaka).Well after that it was rinse and repeat other than th...

Godwin and I went for dinner under Mr.Eyrique's treat.Had one hell of a time killing 2 and a half hours there.Here's wad we had(in accordance to what we ordered) For our starter... Nachos! looked alot like pizza though... And a Caesar Salad!Goodness the bacon was extrodinary...it came in bits on the salad but was exploding with the smokiness of rich bacon @..@ We sorta ordered shared servings,Eyrique worried abt $ problems. So for our Entree we had... Chicken Fajitas served with tortilla,cheese,sour cream, and some salad greens(don't think u can see it, there are shreds of cabbage beneath the tortilla and cheese). The Chicken itself was well seasoned, full of flavour but maybe abit too strong for our next dish Damn it was delicious! Here's one I made for myself Eyrique playing with his tortilla wrap lol And for the main event... American Baby Back ribs!! Note to muslims:This is a non-halal dish As I have said earlier the chicken fajitas were quite strongly flavoured, no...