Wished off a merry Christmas… Now a happy new year

 

The holidays.Wee.What a joy.Such splendour and merry-happiness it holds. For all others.

Never really did much most of the time.Sure there was the christmas party, a clan gathering, outings for a week but rather I still find myself lost inside this void..

I call it my life.

Dragging my feet around daily chores,I stagger aimlessly between stuff I should accomplish, and things that fulfil and satisfy my soul.I can’t help but to waste my nights and mornings meaninglessly, trading my afternoons for hours of timeless slumber.The only and true single variation to my “lifeless” living style would be my job, which dried up in a couple of weeks.My job addiction must’ve swallowed the assignments.

Yes yes there’re all the glamorous gifts gotten from gamers and guys I call friends.Did I mention the church as well? Thank you Lord.

Timelessly again, we’re always fooled by mere numbers of this so called “2 month super-extravagantly looooong holiday” but I find it rather bullshitingly a major let-down. Time cheats, like how every other scammers and businessmen do.The difference is, time’s controlled by the very evil that gave birth to scammers and businessmen.Fuck this paragraph, cut it off FFS.

Needless to say, I find it really annoying that 16 gonna be 17 years of my miserable life has past, and the end of my schooling life sits by the corner, teasing me with its ugly and esteem-diminishing rotten no good smile.The smile that signifies the biggest burden I find to be in this current time, the disgusting baby born from the other hell I call the Ministry of Education.You know what? Our education system sucks. IMHO.

I’ve made several decisions about what I am to do, but yet the same dilemma of accomplishing things crawl up my conscious mind.I just wish one day dedications and responsibilities just run away, and life was treated to a holiday where everyone did absolutely anything but work.

 

The idea of it truely tempts the mind, but never in ever until the day you lay to rest shall that moment arrive.

*smashes the dream*

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